Sunday, March 31, 2013

Because God's Love Overflows...

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It was just last night, between 8:10 to 8:20. We were on our way home; my husband who was driving the motorcycle was about to turn left to Padilla Street when a fast tricycle just suddenly bumped into us. Bernard managed to control the motorcycle after the first impact. But I just closed my eyes and hugged my husband when I knew we would fall. Then I heard sounds. I silently uttered a prayer. Though I haven’t opened my eyes yet, I knew we didn't just fall, we were being dragged by the motorcycle.

I opened my eyes when I heard my husband’s voice calling me. Dragging has stopped. I looked up to find the tricycle, I saw it. Then I heard lots of “Hoy” from the crowd. Just in a split of seconds, it was very clear in my memory when the driver accelerated the gas and drove fast. Concern people especially those on motorcycles chased them. I don’t know what happened there. My husband and I got up. People were crowding us. A helpful POSO man informed us what to do.

Then some of the bikers told us that the tricycle driver and his company who were all under the spirit of liquor were now with the police. God provided that there was a checkpoint along M. P. Posadas Avenue that night. Then my father suddenly showed up and our Ninong Felimon Erguiza together with his children Jerome and Ana. Bernard’s relatives were also there.

We were then assisted to the police station to report the incident and blotter the driver. I couldn’t describe how I felt that night. I got angry when those people who were supposed to be sorry for what they did were the ones blaming us and doing murmurs. Moreover, if looks could kill, my husband and I would be dead on-the-spot.

When I saw how angry my father was, I was pacified somehow. My brother Don was also there with us. My anger totally cooled down when I felt the concern from the loving presence of Pastor David and Manang Gladdy Mancilla, Edwin Austria, and text messages from treasured friends and loved ones. They even followed us when we were brought to the City Health Center for medical check-up. And when we returned to the police station, our beloved Ninang Ana Susan Flor Erguiza was there.

I must admit; however, that annoyance easily enveloped me whenever I heard again some thrash talks from the driver’s friends. He himself even lectured us on how that incident was supposed to be our fault. He was not sorry I said and I was determined to indeed give him the lesson. I can’t control my anger but thank GOD I was able to control my tongue that night. I knew my husband’s temper also but GOD’s grace is so evident in him that he, too, was able to stay calm and patient.

The driver’s father came in to the room where we were having the dialogue with the driver and God’s providence that the policeman mediating was our high school classmate, Edwin Miranda. Bernard and I looked at each other for the father reminded us of Tatay Ben. The humble father did nothing but to plead for his arrogant and proud son.

To shorten my story, estimated (with grace) amount of damages plus our medicines for one week cost PhP 3, 700. The driver went out of the room to see his friends and relatives outside and came back telling us that they don’t have such amount that night and he was willing to be detained there for 12 hours.

He was put inside the cell. My husband was bothered for reasons I don’t know at first. He then asked to call the driver’s father and his friends outside to go near the cell. I didn't know his plan at that time. He suddenly said that he is not a perfect person but Jesus Christ changed him and showed his love to him. My husband said he was a pastor and he wanted/prayed that they too may come to feel and know Jesus. He prayed for them. I knew that the Holy Spirit was working; God’s love was overflowing into our hearts and I wasn't surprised when my husband said that he would not be receiving any amount from the driver despite our health and the motorcycle’s conditions. Shock registered into their faces; the driver’s father cried. For the first time since our meeting that night, the driver and his friends who were very arrogant before were very humble and kept on thanking us. My husband made it clear that he couldn't do such actions if not because of GOD and His unconditional love and grace. He then told the driver not to waste our sacrifice. Uncle Imon and Manang Anie, I’m sure, felt that God’s workings too.

It is our prayer that GOD’s salvation be upon them. And as for my husband, I am too blessed to have a man like him. As we were driving back home on our not-so-good motorcycle, Bernard was telling me that his actions didn't mean he was not concern with what happened to us, especially to me. I told him that I know he loves GOD more than me…and that is the very reason why I love him so…

To GOD alone be the glory!


Thursday, February 28, 2013

I Can Pay Never At All

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       Last February 15, Binmaley United Methodist Youth Fellowship had a Love Fellowship. The young people sang parodies and I am honored (as well as forced) to write one for them. Thank GOD for His guidance and grace. Below is my parody of Ronan Keating's "When You Say Nothing At All".

It's amazing how You
Can break through my hard heart
With Your powerful Word
You take me out of the dark
This I accept I cannot comprehend
How Your grace saves and new life it brings

CHORUS:
The works of Your grace
Let me know that You save me
There's the Truth who is Christ
Saying works never save me
The blood of the Son poured to save and to redeem the fall
You did it all; I can pay never at all

All along sins I bear
To my self I am bound
When my heart feels the fear
In Your arms I am found
I can not say why to me You are kind
What You did so in Your sight I'm fine

The works of Your grace
The Truth who is Christ
The blood of Your Son
Always show that You save me


Tuesday, January 8, 2013

Pagdakila sa Diyos sa Buhay ni Tatay Ben

Matapos ang tatlong buwang pamamahinga ng blog na ito, ni hindi sumagi sa isip ko na pagdadalamhati sa nawalang mahal sa buhay ang mag-uudyok sa akin upang muling buksan ang account na ito at pindutin ang compose at magpaskil na aking kauna-unahang blog post sa taong 2013. 

Kanina ko pa nais na magsulat subalit ako ay pansamantalang napipigilan ng paglilinis ng bahay para sa preparasyon sa pagdating ng mga labi ni Tatay Ben. Nakaplano sa mga gagawin ko sa linggong ito na ako ay gagawa ng general cleaning para magkaroon ng malinis at maayos na titirhan si Tatay sa paglabas niya sa ospital at nang sa gayon ay komportable siya sa kanyang pagpapagaling. Hindi ko naisip na ang dati kong iniisip na excitement sa paglilinis ay mapapalitan ng bigat ng puso at napipintong pagtulo ng mga luha ko kapag naiisip kong ang paglilinis na ginagawa ko ay para na ngayon sa burol ng aming mahal na ama.

Mahigit anim na buwan na ako sa tahanang ito subalit hindi ako nakaramdam ng adjustment na sinasabi ng ilan lalo na't kasama ko sa aking bagong tahanan ang mga in-laws ko. Sabi ng iba na mahirap kasama sa iisang bubong ang in-laws. Mapalad ako at siya ko ngang ipinagpapasalamat sa Diyos na ako'y ipinabilang niya sa pamilya Rosario at sina Tatay Ben at Nanay Eliang ang in-laws ko.

Anim na buwan ang niloob ng Diyos na ibigay sa akin para makasama si Tatay. Nang masabihan ako kagabi na ihanda na ang aming mga sarili sa hindi na pagtagal ng buhay ni Tatay, iniisip kong kulang pa ang anim na buwan para magabayan niya ako sa mga dapat kong gawin dito sa bahay. Kakaunting tips pa lang sa pagluluto ang naibabahagi nila sa akin. Kakaunti pa lang ang mga nabilin nilang dapat isaalang-alang na gawain dito sa bahay. Subalit nang mabalitaan kong sila ay pumanaw na, aking nasambit na lang na ang anim na buwan sa mata ng aking infinite wise GOD ay sapat na.

Naisip ko rin noon na ang aming magiging anak ni Bernard ay mapapalaki katulad ng pagpapalaki nila sa aking asawa lalo pa't kami ay nasa poder nila. Ang kanilang pagpanaw ay may panghihinayang sa aking puso dahil hindi na mararanasan ng magiging anak ko ang nasaksihan kong pagmamahal ng isang Lolo sa kanyang mga apo. Subalit marunong pa rin ang Diyos at sino ako para pangambahan ang kinabukasan ng aking anak. Anak ni Tatay Ben ang aking asawa. Marunong ang Diyos at alam kong ito ang perpektong oras para sa Kanya para mawalay na sa amin si Tatay.

Salamat sa Diyos sa anim na buwang nakapiling ko si Tatay. Wala na akong kahalili sa pagluluto. Wala na ang nagturo sa akin ng maraming bagay sa loob ng anim na buwan. Wala na ang magpapaalala sa aking asawa na ako ay sunduin na sa aking eskuwelahan. Wala na ang magagalit sa akin kapag ako ay magtatrabaho na kahit naka-uniform pa. Wala na ang magsasabing magpahinga muna ako. Wala na ang amang kahit siya ang naunang kakain ay pipiliin ang buntot ng bangus para hindi matinik ang sa kanyang mga anak. Wala ng matiyagang magtatrabaho kahit may dinadamdam. Wala na ang karagdagang ama na ibinigay ng Diyos sa akin. Purihin ang Diyos pa rin sa pagbibigay ng isang Tatay Ben sa akin.

Kulang ang isang blog post para banggitin ang lahat ng pag-ibig, pag-aaruga, at pagtuturo na ipinadama ng Diyos sa akin sa loob lamang ng anim na buwan sa pamamagitan ni Tatay Ben. Dakilain ka, O Diyos dahil napakarunong Mo. Alam na alam mo kung kanino ako matututo nang lubos sa loob lamang ng anim na buwan. Salamat, Panginoon sa buhay ni Tatay Ben.

Sa kabila ng pagdadalamhati, ako'y mapalad na mapabilang sa pamilyang yumayakap at nagagalak (bagamat mga iyakin ang nakapaligid sa akin) sa kalooban ng Diyos. Wala nang mas mainit pa na encouragement kundi ang makitang kaluwalhatian pa rin ng Diyos ang sigaw ng mga naulila. Ang kantang kalakip ng post na ito ay nagagamit namin noon tuwing kami ay makikilahok sa Bible Quiz subalit sa araw na ito, tunay ngang nangungusap sa akin at sigaw ito ng aking damdamin. Nawa ay makapagbigay rin ito ng aliw sa mga nakikidalamhati sa amin.



Sunday, September 2, 2012

My Beloved BERNARD Turns 30



Blessed I am when I met you
At that time His plan for us I don't know
We simply sat during VCS and sang "The B-I-B-L-E"
Who would expect we share even songs of Lecrae

Elementary years we were cat and dog
We can't sit together otherwise World War II
Now we laughed at those crazy days
Especially that event in Ma'am Nelly's place

"Rah for dear SEPNAS" - our next home
On our third year, suddenly -- BOOM!
Changed in hearts, changed in relationship
Thanks to CHRIST, in Him we found our friendship

New interests, new goals - everything was changed
Oh what a magnificent Love into our hearts overflowed
With you I have a bestfriend, a father, a discipler - I am blessed
Working together in His vineyard, His Name is forever praised

A bunch of memories we shared in UP Baguio
Many people asked if we you were my boyfriend and I got tired of answering no
Who would have believe the bond we have; you are more than a brother to me
A bond that desires nothing else that the exaltation of God's glory

Relationship now becomes much sweeter
For CHRIST reveals that you are my GODsend ever
I'm pretty sure you will tease me of that moment on March 9
When chao fan was not eaten because of throbbing heart of mine

Days passed by so quickly; two months after our awaited June 30
I still can't help to marvel and stand in awe of God's display of His majesty
You are now thirty, I hope to renew that vow with you after twenty years
But I wonder if we can still do the Sunset Bay adventures


 
Copyright His Beloved 2011.